Behind the porcelain skin...

Hiding behind the square window,
I could hear them laughing,
enjoying the meals,together..

Looking at my self,
there is no other than you, my shadow man,
You always there by my side,
since i was learnt how to talk,
how to walk,
you have no face,
you have no voice,
but with you i feel calm.

Being me is not as easy as they might think,
Nothing comes by free,
twenty four eleven i am stranded in my room,
facing all the books,
They should look at my schedule,
I don't want to be isolated,
not me, please i beg for your attention,
Books couldn't hug me,
Books couldn't live my life up,
I know mom will be upset hearing me say all of this,
But nobody can stand the
loneliness,
why should I be blamed for all of this brighten,
Teachers love me much,
they say I am an apple of the eyes,
So,is that the reason for me,
to be lonely?

my arms long to reach for you,
the true friends,
who can shelter my life,
who can makes my life more stronger,
and lead me to the happiness.