Words for You..

can't stand the feeling when givin up is needed..

i am so rude,

but the most important is you,

because,

my life brought up by your smile,

no one knows about it,

cause we are successfully hide it,

we both know there is no way for our love,

and there is goes, the sacrification.

I proud of you,

the girl who is always makes me feel so alive,

with your jokes,

with your concern,

people can say anythin they like,

only us know better,

we share the feeling,

but,

love is so universal,

just like you said for most of the time,

there is no ends to love,

even we are not have it..

smiling whenever you with him,

lending my shoulder whenever you need me..

lucky im in love with my best friend.

++++this is for the post card(received from someone)++++

Dancing With You, Brand!

Watching you in Forgetting Sarah Marshall,

makes me trembled to get to know you,

Your husky voice,

Your London accent,

even though a thousand people call you a trash,

I know in the darkness of your side,

You have the beautiful rhythm in your steps,

in your movement,

and that I couldn't get it out of my mind,

Black and white,

is your colour,

wearing the tight jeans,

It shows your masculinity,

and that is the reason

for me,

to keep on dreaming,

Dancing in the moonlight,

Dancing with the incredible guy,

in the valentine party,

only with you,

Russell Brand!

Being Here, In my Room

Live life in peace,

whenever I came in,

Baby pink bedsheet,

baby pink pillowsheet,

there is no other but pink,

because it is you,

who give me the colour.



The big mirror in front of the queen size bed,

I could see the real me,

Nobody knows me better than you,

so, Mirror, Mirror on the wall,

why should people judge me so badly?

I rather talk to you everyday, every second,

Nobody can come in,

nobody can live in,

No one,

but only me,

the girl who has her own identity,

between this wall in this territory,

being here,

alone...

Books-belong to me...

My parents started buy me a collection of fairy-tales books since i was young. At first, I just lookin at the pictures in the books. Only after a few years, i started read them.

I still can remember, the books that i got from my standard three english teacher-Mrs Baldip singh Kaur. She gaves me Bicycle magic because of my achievement in her classes..And starts from that moment, i've read lots of the Enid Blyton's collection. I also read Sherlock Holmes series. That was when i at younger ages.

By the way, the most memorable books are the Sidney Sheldon's collection. I should gives a thousand of thanks to my cousin, Kak Lyn. When I came to her house in Taman Kemensah, She brought me to her room. She knews that i love to see the books collection. So, she showed me her collection. There were lots of books in her room. But, my interest was only the sidney sheldon's novel, Morning, night and noon.. I asked her about the book, and she said that the novel was one of her favourite book and she loved to let me read it. I just say nothing.I smiled to her. I putted the novel back on her table. By the way, before i left, she gave the book to me, and that makes me suprised. She said, read and keep it. I took the book and read it when reach home.

From the book, i could see the western lifestyle. other than that, in the novel, lots of view i could see. I think, i love the way sidney wrote the novel. After morning, noon, and night, I also read the other books. And some of the books are related for example the name of the characters. dana evans is the favourite character. It occurs on the other sidney's books. The book have included the South Asia like Arab Saudi. So in the novel, the other perspective of western people is viewed as being nice to the arabic people. Kemal, the muslim ypung boy, which has lose his hand, was adopted by dana evans has her son. She treat him very kindly, and some of her friends also treat him n the same way.. However, some of people cannor accept what she does, and hate Kemal as much as they can because of the political issues and religion.

So, this book give me lots of experience and during my teenage age, i think this novel is good for my knowledge eventhough there are some of the adults part included.

fasting fever...

mother..
my hands so long to reach for you..
i am longing for your cook...
being far away is quite irritating...
hopin that the time move faster...
looking at the moon,
waiting for hari raya...

father...
missing all the time..
when we both went to bazar ramadhan...
buying something for breaking fast..
no one could be as good as you..
you know my appetite better..
you know my favourite dessert..
you know my syrup soda so well..
you know..
i know you know...

living far away from hometown...
give me a lots of new things..
i am here..
studying...
sometimes,
feeling so blue...
when having the classes at night..
breaking fast with my friends..
we are all the same...
we are hunger for your careness..
hunger to be with the family..
when there is no time to reach home..

L, Lawliet- Live in Loneliness

One lonely evening, I logged on to crunchyroll website. Hoping that there is a movie that I can watching it online. I love romantic-comedy movie, but only from west film production. Asian? I am also one of the Asian-movies fan, but only for the horror and thriller genre. And so, there are lots of horror-thriller movies in the list. Which movie i chose on the evening? The lucky Death Notes caught up my eyes. And, from that time and onwards, i identified myself as L die-hard-fan. For all the day along, i,ve been watching it repeatedly. Slowly I deeply,madly attracted to him. Such a crazy girl, i smiled to myself whenever I think of him. The way he dressed up, he walk, talk and behave, are so adorable. L, or Lawliet, is the most strange and weird character that I've ever watched and falling in love with. It is like fell in love at first sight. I love psycic and mysterious things. Because of my intention on all kinds of investigation, easily i've been attracted to L.



L is illustrated as the super detective, he works alone with his respectful partner, Watari. Mostly, detective is created as an older and full-experienced man. Differ to him, L is a young adult, with the very genious and have the talent to solve any crime or investigation. Death Notes got the good feedback from the audience because of L's character. Why am I so adored him?
I am not so sure. But i love to mimicry his way when holding something. He just used his two fingers and it looks so cute. His white plain face shows no feeling and we cannot read what is really on his mind. All about him is so odd. The way he sit on the chair, is quiet unussual. To him, it is good to sit like the way he sat because it could help his think much more better. How ridiculous but acceptable, just because of him.

L, loves sweet foods. That is how it differ from other character. I wish to eat the way he ate. All kind of sweets he takes, I just love them. Too much sweets could give the bad impact. But being him, sweets is all the needs to have the brilliant brain. That's awesome right. How heaven the life is.

Till now, L still be as my favourite character ever after. No one can be as simple as him. Wearing the simple white shirt and blue jeans, he looks so cool. Nobody will assume that he is a detective. His plain face with no expression , and the dead eyes he has, makes him be so goofier.

However, his appearance in L change the world movie, make the audience feel so close to him. I could feel his feeling towards other people. In the other previous movie (death notes 1 and 2), the focus is only on the way he solved mystery. But in L change the world, as the audience, the character tearing me down. He is such a lonely young man, who has no one to comfort him, to hear his feeling. He is only has Watari, an old man aka his assistant. He is willing to sacrifice his own life, as the way to prove who is the real criminal. Eventhough he could save lots of people, but he lost Watari. He has a strong spirit. I do not know how am i feeling if i knew that im going to die 23 days later. Maybe i will just stay at home and cry out loud. But L is never do that. After he makes the sacrificed by write his name on the death note, he still try to help other people. He fill his remains of the day by going to the country affected by the dangerous virus. At there, he found so many people, especially the kids.

The kids are only the friend that he have. he gives all his best to comfort the kids. Sometimes, I could see his loving and caring face on his plain white face. He try to forgot the sadnees of losing watari, so he makes his life busy on others. However, L's character is over when he is died on 23rd day. He died in peace, holding Watari pictures, and full of loneliness.